23 July 2010

CONFESSION TIME

I really love doing porn.  It turns me on a lot.  Why should I feel embarrassed or ashamed that I have gone out and done something that makes me feel great, look great, and I'm having some of the hottest sex on the planet.  and what I mean when I say that, I mean, gives me boners for days, weeks, months later.  Maybe it is the effect of the cult, Treasure Island Media, that I am now part of.  I have been thinking about things in terms of Daddy/Son type ways, and it's kinda like Treasure Island is the daddy, whoring his boys out to all his other boys.  When I was in SF I felt like Cory the whole time.  Cory can do things that Darren wouldn't do.  I've been telling myself to hold onto that feeling and carry it on.  Embrace Cory, don't be afraid of him.  Cory is kindofthe idealized, super slutty, version of me. 



It's hard not to think that this creation of Cory is his mind's way of not dealing with things he deems too painful to deal with, so for him to enjoy himself and relax and enjoy things a bit Cory has to come out and woooooEEEEEEooooooooo.

8 comments:

Mark Paulda London said...

you're my hero
and good for you! appearing in a tim flick has always been on my list.

that being said a photographic/essay book exploring the two personalities you mention in this post is high on my list of projects. i'm very much the same way though doubt i should be the subject. interested?

Geoff said...

Cory -- keep posting those jock-strap pictures. Your ass looks so irresistible framed by them.

Anonymous said...

Fuck you look awesome...and can I say that I am glad to have you back ;) anyway I can get you.

T n IL.

Derek said...

Thank you for being so honest, so vulnerable, and for allowing your insights to be so accessible that the person fortunate enough to stumble upon this diary (me!) leaves also willing to explore himself in a new way--

Please keep writing!

Anonymous said...

I hope you will let your fans know when your first scenes are available, I need my Cory fix satisfied ;)

pjwalsh25 said...

Cory/Darren Thank you for your honesty.

DD said...

Good for you Cory! The world is full of people who live lives as fakes and such for myriad reasons. They more often than not are unhappy in many areas of their lives and that negativity spreads to others and Good for you for knowing what makes you happy AND DOING IT!!!! you're an inspiration.

Starfox7000 said...

I love your honesty bro. Your complete honesty. I think most of us Bi guys are just afraid of being put in a category but we would love to be doing the same thing as you, with you!! Hey, how about visiting Minneapolis and spending sometime at a Cabin. Amazing scenery, fantastic sex, and good company. Let me know when you want to join us Minnesotans for our Cabin weekends. :)