02 June 2008

Something Very Important

I've realized that I'm taking cymbalta for a reason... If I go off it, I go completely nutty. It happened to me again in the past month. I was really depressed anyway and figured that if I stopped taking it maybe I'd get my sex drive back at least, but instead I was subject to wild mood swings--from bad to worse. I didn't want to write about it, nor did I talk to friends about it, family; I isolated myself as best I could. I realized I was reaching an all-time low and thoughts were entering my head that never had before. I have a great lesbian therapist and that combined with resuming the cymbalta seemed to help, or rather, I woke up one day and decided to attract positive energy again. PHEW! More later. I'm trying to get to bed after such a crazy, wild weekend (I will post stories soon) but I can't stop thinking. I can barely keep my eyes open but my brain is wide awake. As usual. I keep trying to tell myself I control my brain, not the other way around, but the brain seems to be winning tonight...

5 comments:

Suffern AC said...

Glad you are back. Now take your meds, please. We prefer you to be out with us rather than isolated in your head.

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Anonymous said...

So, you haven't learnt your lesson, now did you? We had so much hope after the last entry. Whine whine whine whine whine... There hasn't been a pseudo- celebrity that has divulged so much about their mental health state since Margot Kitter, and look WHERE THAT GOT HER!! Is that really what you want? Being a bag lady on the streets? You're on a oneway trip tp skidsville! You're seriously in danger of losing your sex appeal. In the "wise" words of Heidi Klum, "One day you're in the next day you're out." There has been no illustrious comeback for a wornout pornstar!! Why don't you just fuck the pain away? When in doubt listen to Peaches. And do us a favor- GET OFF THE METH!! It's the worst comedown ever!! And we're sick of hearing about it... And another thing... what are you doing taking advice from someone who is the exact opposite of what you are???? Unless you want advice on how to put up an outdoor deck over the weekend or the secret of putting on invisible makeup, then be my guest. Ok, we're bored and drunk. Love you, mean it, ciao...
muah
Wessel and Jason

igotthemagkstic said...

Congratulations man.Youve discovered something incredible that the majority of individuals with mental illnesses seldom do......U need to take your medicine CONSISTENTLY. Caught your DIRTY film too man and that ass just gets better and better.

mstrbtngrotcrow said...

precious sweet baby lamb, take your meds sweetcheeks